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December 2, 2014 ~ Kiss the Boys


Teagan is still having issues at school.  This is only part of yesterday’s behavior report.

Her day is divided into 14 periods and she is responsible for keeping track of her behavior.  This is in addition to the traffic light the rest of the class is on.  Her scale is a bit different than the others though – she needs two bad behaviors in a row to move from green to yellow to red.  She also resets back to green at least once during the day.

We get one of these sheets home every day, usually with at least three issues, most are because she was noisy, or couldn’t focus or follow directions.  The  notation that bothers us the most, and there’s at least one a day, is when she can’t keep her hands to herself.  Thankfully, she’s not always hitting her classmates.

Yesterday, there were five times that her behavior warranted the teacher detailing her actions. I suppose it’s not as bad as it could be, though the day only had 13 sections, she did have eight stickers for good behavior.

It was also the first time we had seen that she was chasing the boys, trying to kiss them.

Today, we read that she pulled her pants down during music class.  She said she needed to go to the bathroom.  In music?  Really?



November 24, 2014 ~ Broken Drill

Driving home from pre-school Ashlin told me she had a secret.  A secret she’d tell me at home, and then tell dada, and then Teagan and then mama.  Ok.  You can totally tell me your secret twice.  She admitted that it really wasn’t a secret, she just wanted to say it was, she just wanted to have a secret.  Silly girl.

Once we were home, she told us about her secret – that they had a Broken Drill – or something along those lines – in case of an emergency – at school today.  She said that all the kids in class as well as the teacher and the para go and sit crisscross applesauce in the bathroom and be quiet.  According to her, it was kinda fun, because her teacher let them watch Bubble Guppies on her phone.  Ashlin and her sister don’t get to watch that show often at home.  When I asked how long the drill was, she told me it was 40 minutes.  That seemed a bit long for a drill, when I asked if she got to see all the show, she said no, just a little bit.

We were still talking about this when Teagan got home.  Teagan had a fire drill today, even with the rain.  She told me that for fire drills they go outside, for work drills they sit on the carpet. But for broken drills they go in to a closet.  The kindergartners don’t get to sit, they kneel.  There are just too many kindergartners to sit in the closet or hide in the bathroom.

So sad that both my three-year-old and five-year-old know how to hide in place.  Crazy that both of them were so blasé about the whole thing, but they don’t know how the world has changed.  What they’ve lost.  Well, what we’ve lost, they don’t really know.  To them, normal is hiding in a closet or a bathroom watching Bubble Guppies on a phone.

I wish the world wasn’t this way.  That they can be the silly little girls they are.



September 3, 2014 ~ The other one

The other one

Today I got a call from Teagan’s teacher. She told me that Teagan has been having some issues at school.  Mostly behavior issues.


Although not surprised, I – we –  were hoping for better.  She told us she would listen, sit still, behave.


It seems that she’s been having trouble following instructions, listening and complying.  Like at home.  Her teacher put her in the “cube chair” because she can’t sit still during circle time on the floor.


On top of that, she is pinching, pulling hair, hugging, and touching her classmates.  Classmates that she can’t remember the names of because she’s not listening.


I told the teacher that we would work to reinforce the good behavior at home, remind her to keep her hands to herself, to be calm and listen to the teacher.

When she behaves she is the most awesome little girl.  Fun, smart, funny, interesting.  I’m sad that she’s not sharing this amazing person with school.   I hope we can get this rocky start smoothed out and turn this around.

Fingers crossed.


August 26, 2014 ~ The Day Before

First Day of School Outfit

This is the outfit Teagan wants to wear tomorrow.  I was going to give her a choice of a few outfits, have her pick from them, but I needn’t have worried.  She wanted the first outfit I showed her, saying “Mama, that’s exactly what I wanted to wear!”

I ironed it for her.  That is not a wrinkle on the left side.  Really.  It’s just a shadow.  From the pleat.

I can’t believe summer is over already.  It flew by.  We spent most of it at Lake Compounce, with occasional trips to Bounce U or a playground.  Towards the end, we also played a bit of Just Dance on the Wii.  Ashlin often scored higher than Teagan, but neither girl really paid attention to the scores.

Lunch for Teagan is packed, snacks for Ashlin. Back packs are labeled and ready. Well, I need a spare outfit for Ashin – just in case!  Both girls are excited for school, and Ashlin is jealous of Teagan being able to take the bus.  She has to be driven, special, to her pre-K class.  She’s also upset that she doesn’t have a fuzzy blanket for nap time, even though she doesn’t have nap time.

I think they’ll both do great tomorrow.  I hope they do.  I’m sure they will.  Hopefully, I’ll do just as well.

Teagan’s new fuzzy blanket


January 1, 2014 ~ It’s weird to type 2014

New Year’s Eve

We ended up staying home this New Year’s Eve. Stu had to work making it impossible to meet up with friends out of state as we usually do.  Normally, it’s a lovely dinner followed by fun, games, laughs, with good friends and just a little bit of champagne.  A family affair, no driving required – once there.  A lazy breakfast follows, and eventually, a longish drive back home.

So.  home.  Take out Chinese once the kiddos are in bed – they got to watch the Wonderland episode of Wonder Pets and stayed up late! A little bit of wine for me.  Once Stu was done with his work, we pulled out the games I got for Christmas – Munchkin, Rummikub and Qwirkle. (I also got Fluxx – Monty Python edition, but we hadn’t drunk enough to play that one.  Also, we had played the Oz variant, so it wasn’t “new.”)

Munchkin was pretty fun.  Not to difficult to play first time out.  The cards were funny – weapons, monsters, actions – I had one that was an eleven-foot pole, Stu got an angry chicken as a monster to fight.  I’m sure the dynamics of more than two people playing make it very funny and a bit more cut-throat and fast.  With just us two, it was still pretty fun.  Also, the champagne helped.

Rummikub was a much more enjoyable play than I had expected, though I had read very enthusiastic reviews.  Both Stu and I really enjoyed it, once we got the hang of it – a weird mix of scrabble and rummy.  We didn’t keep score, but played three sets, just enough to get the feel of it.

Qwirkle, well, that got opened after midnight.  Fun game, but one that we will need to try again, with a more thorough read of the directions.  It plays like a variant of dominoes.  I’m sure the champagne and fatigue didn’t help, but we still enjoyed playing it.  Stu got all the qwirkles!

Both of us managed to stay up to midnight, and a bit beyond!  We had fun playing the new games, drinking champagne.  Well, sparkling wine.  We did start the bottle a bit early, but made sure we had enough to toast at midnight.  We had Ryan Seacrest on, it’s not the same without Dick Clark.  If we had watched Carson Daly, we would have seen my cousin policing the stage!  Gotta love the NYPD!  I can’t imagine having to work security on New Year’s Eve.

So, a good New Year’s Eve – much better than last year, spent with my love.  The girls even slept in.  For them.  Granted Ash was up at her usual 6am, but only demanded her blankets be put back on before she lay back down.  For almost forty minutes, a lovely doze.  She was then distracted for another 20 some odd minutes when I told her it was too early, even Steve from Blue’s Clues was still sleeping.  Eventually, she decided that the day was old enough, and asked for Blue’s Clues, no Dinosaur Train, no Steve-Blue!  Good enough, that gave me another 20 minutes of dozing.  Teagan was good and stayed in her room – except for a quiet knock on Ash’s door – until I went to get her.

A pretty good morning, almost a lay-in.  So, of course, it had to turn.

I got a call from my college roommate.  One of those calls you just never want to get.  Her mother passed away.  A wonderful woman, one, who once she saw how close her daughter and I were, treated me as one of her family.  They would include me for meals when they came to school to visit K, send care packages and notes when we were away.   She drove up (five hours!) for my wedding and my baby shower. She had been sick, so it’s not really unexpected.  But it was.  It always is.  She was doing better, had a happy and good Christmas.  Some of her best days in months, if not years.  K said she was walking without her cane, for the first time in years. Things started turning a few days ago, and just kept going downhill.  And now she’s gone, and I feel like I’ve lost part of my family.  And all I want to do is go give my friend a hug, and wish I had gotten a chance to see her mother just one more time.






July 17, 2013

Sister snuggles

Missing these smiles

This week, I’ve been missing my girls.  A lot.  Work has required that I leave the house either before or as they wake up in the the morning, and then not be back until after bed time.  I miss Stu too, but at least he’s awake when I get home.  Twelve hour work days are not fun.

Monday, I got quick, snotty kisses from them before dashing out.  I was 20 minutes late to the command center.  I ended up getting home after then were both tucked in, so no snuggling at all while watching Peppa Pig.

Tuesday, I took the time to brush Ashlin’s hair and chatted to Teagan for a minute before leaving.  Again, 20 minutes late. I tried to get home early enough to make the end of bed time, Stu kept them up late, so got to see them for a little bit.  Long enough to get a big hug or two from Ashlin and to brush Tegagan’s teeth – she gave up her bedtime books to watch a bit of Dora.  I missed out on Ashlin reading books.  On the way into day care, Ashlin read to Teagan and Stu:  “Ahum um hum hum.  Piggy pancackssssssssssssssshhhh.” Lots of words have a “sh” sound at the end, a la Sean Connery.  She would hold up the page to show the picture.  Next page:  “Ahum um hum hum hum.  Piggy.  Pancakessssssssssshhhh.”  I love when she reads books out loud.  I’m sorry I missed this.

This morning Teagan was up early.  When she heard the alarm, she came and snuggled with me for a little bit.  Ashlin didn’t wake until after I left.  Today, I was only 15 minutes late.

I’m hoping to get home in time for books, pre-bed snuggles would be even better!  Stu told me that Ashlin was having a hard time.  She was pretty down on Monday when she didn’t see me.  Everytime the iPad sounded out the Pot Noodle horn as I got a text, she shouted “Mama’s heeeeeeerrrrrrrr!”  Stu told her no, but she insisted “Yesss!  Is.”  Last night, she barely touched her dinner.  When asked, she looked up sadly at Stu and said “Mama no home.”  Bottom lip quivering.  Gah.  Stu gave her extra snuggles and an extra book.

I really miss those little moments.  The quick snuggle in bed before the day begins, the winding down snuggle on the sofa watching something on Nick Jr.  Reading books.  Tickles.  Listening to Teagan tell about her day, or tell one of her stories.  Her bizarre pre-school illogical stories.  Her laughing so hard she hiccups for “Knock, knock… Orange you glad I didn’t say banana?”  Watching her make Ashlin laugh, and then laugh so hard she sounds like a chicken and begs for relief.  Then as soon as she catches her breath, asks for more.

This weekend is Girls’ Weekend, and I’ll be away.  Again.  Fingers crossed the girls do well…  That Ashlin does better.

I am going to miss their giggles:


May 20, 2013 ~ Bed!

Brobee waitsIt was a crazy weekend! Saturday was filled with a jumpy party for Teagan, while my dad and I were converting her toddler bed into a full size, big-girl bed.   I was hoping that we’d be able to get the job done before they got back from the party, but well, snafu.  We were missing a few (8!) essential bolts.  I think they were in the box when we initially put her crib together four years ago, and then were packed away some where safe, only to be moved and finally misplaced.


Needed her snack cup and sword to try her new bed!We ended up cannibalizing the no-longer needed sides and borrowing some slightly redundant ones from the headboard, (which will be replaced ASAP!).  Three hours later, (!), we were finished.  Mom and I put the bedding on and then called down for Teagan.  She rushed upstairs and was ecstatic when she saw the stars, the pink, and Brobee waiting for her.  We need to get her a step stool, this new bed is a bit high.  Much taller than her mattress that was on the floor!

She slept well in the big bed the first night.  She looked so tiny!  I did need to push her back to the middle when I went in to check on her.  She’s promised not to jump on the bed, nor use the side rail as a step to get up and in.  Unfortunately she now can turn on her overhead light all by herself by standing on the foot of the bed.  We need to take off the chain extender I have on it now.

I can’t believe she’s gotten so big.  It’s a bit melancholy, but awesome at the same time.  She’s so happy to have her bed.She is in there. So small.


January 3, 2013

Last sunset sky of 2012

Last sunset of 2012

It feels so weird to type 2013!  I haven’t needed to write it before now either.  Crazy to think we’re in the new year already.  Last year really feels like it flew by, a blink of an sleep-deprived eye.

Our New Year’s was a bit of a mixed bag.  On the one hand it was great fun with friends, delicious food, fun games.  Good times.  On the other hand, it sucked, as Stu had to back out of our out of town plans and work.  At first, he was going to follow me and the girls up, but the necessary work took longer than he thought.  It was like before we got married, with him stuck over in the UK and me over here.  We got to text a little and I did call him at midnight, but still.  Not the New Year’s Eve we planned on.

Teagan got almost 1,000 points in her dance. #wii #justdance

Teagan got almost 1,000 points in her dance

I do have to say the girls were wonderful, and my friends helped a lot with one girl when I needed to be with the other.  They both slept pretty well, until around 5:45, which was awesome after a 2am bedtime for me!  Then the fun started.  One needed to go to the bathroom, the other didn’t want to go, but didn’t want to stay alone.   One wanted to play with a doll house, the other wanted to bang on the windows.  It was so hard to keep them quiet.  I do think we did wake some of the sleeping friends up. :(  We had a TV in the room, but finding something that both of them would like wasn’t easy.  Not at all.  We eventually settled on PBS and some weird kid show, instead of FOX News or TBS or something similar.  I guess the talking cats or tigers or bears or whatever seemed interesting enough for them.

Ashlin didn't like the song. Lol #wii #justdance

Ashlin didn’t like the song. LOL!

Once people started getting up, we went downstairs, and the girls were off!  Breakfast, milk, books, potty.  They were pretty well behaved though.  When the rest of the kids were up, the Wii got pulled out and the dance party began!  Both girls started dancing along, wanting to actually play, but at first were happy enough just dancing along with the big kids.  Eventually, Teagan was given a wi-mote and they put on that One Direction song.  It wasn’t an easy dance, with four dancers, but she knows the song, and that helps a bit.  She did pretty good, considering she didn’t know what she was doing.  Got almost a thousand points her first go!  She did NOT want to give up the remote.  After a bit it was Ashlin’s turn.  She just liked hitting the buttons and would exit the dance and go to the home screen.  LOL!

The drive home was pretty good too.  Teagan did not need to go to the bathroom, Ashlin didn’t throw up.  Bonus!  I found a kids music show – Elizabeth Mitchell doing Woodie Guthrie songs – on Sirius, and both girls were enthralled.  I’m going to need to find some more Woodie Guthrie songs.  Playing the Riding in my Car song to them this morning, they both started clapping along and rocking to the beat.  Ashlin even repeated “cahhh, caahhh” almost in the right places :)

Next year, New Year’s will be different.  Well, I won’t trust that Stu will be able to follow…  I really missed him.

PS.  DIY projects will follow, Christmas presents, treats, etc can all be shared with a much larger audience.  Though, last night, I started a blanket.  For me.  Well, for the living room…

Next #crochet #project - an #afghan for me!  #crazy #brick #stitch with super soft #redheart #yarn

Crazy Stitch or Brick Stitch…


December 27, 2012

#christmas #tree with #presents. Before

Just after Santa arrived

We had an awesome Christmas, with too many presents for babies, too much good food.  And snow.  We had a white Christmas.

Teagan and Ashlin each got to make treats for Santa, and Teagan dictated a note for him.  Ashlin did a great job making her treats, maybe better than Teagan, who just wanted to mix the ingredients all up.

We went out to celebrate LaLa’s birthday, and came back to change into Christmas pj’s, and head to bed, because of course, you need to be asleep or Santa wouldn’t come.  We were hard pressed to get all the presents under the tree, and not all the stocking stuffers fit in the stockings.  Some extra went into peppermint candy bags.

Teagan loved opening her presents, and as many other people’s presents as would let her.  I gave her some of Ashlin’s to open, reinforcing that she was helping her sister, as Ashlin ran out of steam way before her presents ran out.

After a nap, the girls went outside to play in the snow, and Ashlin loved it.  The first thing Teagan did was make a snow angel on the walkway.  I ran to get my phone, but by the time I got back, Ashlin had walked through it.

The girls had a big Christmas, hopefully one that Teagan will remember.  Hopefully one that will leave Ashlin with some warm fuzzy memories too.

#hat!  Yay for #crackers

Goofy Christmas Princess

#rudolph's replacement

Rudolph’s Replacement

On our way home, accidents and traffic forced us to reroute and we drove through Sandy Hook.  It was heartbreaking.  So many memorials, so many tributes.  Luminaries.  Christmas trees.  Signs.  Stuffed animals and flowers.  Such a beautiful town to have such evil happen there.  We ended up going back onto the highway before the road was clear, it was so difficult to see all the tributes.  And then I snuggled my girls when we got home.  I’m so glad they still like to snuggle

snuggles on the sofa

Snuggles on the sofa

PS.  Teagan did get her copy of “The Princess and the Frog.”   Ashlin is doing much, much better, though still isn’t sleeping well.


December 17, 2012

I'm melting!

I’m Melting!

Teagan drew a picture of the Wicked Witch of the West before she went swimming yesterday.  I like that she put a smiley face on the witch as she melted.

Over the weekend, we tried to do snuggly things.  I think the girls got a little too much screen time, and maybe too many cookies and tootsie rolls.  It was so hard to not hug them every two minutes.  But watching a movie, snuggling is expected! We also did a little bit of art, went for a walk, or a run if you were Ashlin, and Teagan rode her bike.  She’s getting really good at keeping her momentum going up the long, slow hills of the neighborhood.

But back to the swimming!  Teagan was amazing!  So much progress in just a few days.  In her last swim lesson, she barely let go of the instructor, and yesterday she was spinning in circles without touching a wall or clinging to Stu.  So proud of my big girl.


PS.  Ashlin loves to run!


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Look at her swim!!!

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