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April 12, 2011

I can’t believe it’s already Tuesday!  OMG!  Where has the time gone?  And I’ve only had one baby home most of the time – Teagan’s been going to day care, it’s just breakfast and dinner with the two of them.

Strength and stamina is slowly returning.  I’m still exhausted by the end of the day, and sorely miss the nap if I don’t fit it in.  I need to be sure to fit naps in more often :)  Bending is still trouble, and my belly is still numb.  I read/heard that it could be months before it’s better, if it does get better.

We had Ashlin’s Two Week Doctor’s appointment today.  Good news!  She’s gained back most of her birth weight, her clicky knee seems better.  Her jaundice is not  any worse, may even be a little better.  Doctor isn’t worried about it.  She’s spat up (puked!) twice in two days.  Doctor thinks she could be over feeding – which is a bit odd for a breastfed baby – we need to keep an eye out, if she’s cranky before or after, it becomes more frequent, we may have to look into reflux issues.  But right now, he’s not worried about that either.

The nurse called today with her ultrasound appointment to rule out hip dysplasia.  It will be good to get that out of the way, and know that there’s nothing wrong with her hips, even though she was breech for a while.  The PKU blood results aren’t back yet, but here, no news is good news.  If there was something, they would have called.  If there’s nothing, they usually mail the results.  We haven’t had a phone call yet…

Teagan’s been crying (not like Sunday, thank goodness!) every night after we put her to bed.  It’s frustrating not knowing why she’s crying, but each night it’s a little less long.  So, that’s getting better too.

The double stroller is a hit!  We even went walking in tonight’s drizzle, though not for long.  Can’t let the little one catch a chill.

Anyway, I’m ready for bed now, I’m so tired!

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April 5, 2011

Today was Ashlin’s first doctor visit.  We were late.  Of course.  I needed to nurse her before we left, and she decided that she’d dilly dally and not be the chap nurser that she’s been the past day or so.  Oh well.  We were late.

The appointment went well.  She’s gained 5oz since discharge, which is good for a breastfed baby.  She’s not grown, though her head has shrunk (just an eight of an inch).  Doc said she looked wonderful.  Little jaundice, but not enough to worry about.  I knew I wasn’t crazy when I said I thought she had a slightly yellow tint.

The only thing that was a bit concerning, and even then not really, was that we need to retest her blood from the PKU.  Her results came back as high for thyroid.  Doctor said that the range they put in is very large, so there are lots of false positives.  He doesn’t think there’s anything to worry about.  But the results should be back by Friday.

We should also hear sometime this week about setting up the ultrasound for the hip dysplasia.  The doctor today thinks the clicking I feel/hear is coming from her knee, not her hip.  It made me feel good that I wasn’t dismissed,  but listened to.  He gave me a very possible alternative – and hey, what do I know?  I just know I hear/feel something when I change her diaper.  Something.


Teagan was in a funny mood tonight once she got home from day care.  She caught her finger on one of the gates, and was nearly inconsolable.  I asked if she wanted to sit on my lap and have me look at it.  She said she did.  So, once I got settled, mom put her in my lap.  She sat there a minute or so, we had a snuggle, and then she was better.

Dinner, could be considered a disaster.  Not total, but very nearly.  Mom had made dinner, and pulled some aside to cool for Teagan.  Stu got her settled in her chair, and then went to put her bib on.  She wanted nothing to do with her bib.   She was like that last night too, but I didn’t think much of it.

Anyway, she was just prickly through the dinner.  Didn’t want the food, wanted the food, threw a bit, played with a bit.  Tried to make us laugh.  (We totally need to stop her trying to “entertain” at mealtime).

Since she was “all dun” with her chicken, she handed me the plate, and me not being able to lean over far enough barely touched the bowl as she let go, and it fell on the floor.  If I had been able to lean over, I would have had a better grip.  And then I can’t clean it up.  Frustrating for both her and me.  And my wonderful family that have to pick up the slack for me.  (Can you tell I’m tired of not being 100%?  Even 60% would be better.  I know I’m getting there though).

As she needed to have something to eat, I offered her some cheerios and string cheese.  Teagan said that would be acceptable.  LOL.  Mom wanted to give her some left over Chinese, some left over manicotti, something else.   I do not want to get in the habit of short oder cooking for her, so if she’s not going to eat dinner with us, she can have an easy alternative – o’s and cheese.  If I was more healed, I would have offered her some yogurt, but I didn’t have the strength to mix the fruit in.

She was eating her string cheese, again, trying to make us laugh, and got a piece stuck in her throat.  She was able to pull it out.  But then she did it again.  On purpose.  This time, she ended up gagging and throwing up a little bit.  I don’t think she expected that to happen.

Strawberries were a hit, as they always are.  She can’t get enough of them.  LOL.  Dinner ended well.  Bedtime was a different story.  It was almost like Sybill had taken over.

Maybe she’s over tired, maybe she’s just reacting to having her world turned upside down.  Hopefully we’ll get our sweet girl (who’s gotten so big!) back all the time, soon.


March 18, 2011

Am I allowed to love two inanimate things?  Today’s chiro appointment was at a different office, where they have “drop away” tables.  OMG!  It was awesome.  The doc showed me how the table works – a bit freaky, as it just drops down – and then did the adjustment.  Oh, it was great.  I’d like to have the next treatments done there, thank you.

Last night I slept better than I had for most of this week.  Yes, I was doing stretches and sitting on a yoga ball at 4am, but I did sleep most of the night.  Lovely.  I got up around 6:30 am and something felt different in my hip, less tension or something.  The Chiro noticed as well, my hip was much more flexible today than it was.  Maybe it was results from all the adjustments.  Doesn’t matter.  It was better.  Is better.

I think that, combined with the table, that things will improve.  He said that my “pain to treatment score” or whatever the insurance uses was 65, where 0 is the goal.  They approved all the treatments to date.  I retake the questionnaire and depending on the improvement, they approve more, or not.  I have an appointment tomorrow.  That will make 9 treatments in 11 days.

I feel better.


March 17, 2011

Happy Saint Patrick’s Day!

I usually find a nice Irish quote to share, but this year, I just don’t have the strength.  Well, ok, maybe a small one:

“Aim at heaven and you will get earth thrown in.  Aim at earth and you get neither.”  – C.S. Lewis

We’re still aiming for heaven – that the placenta moves, the hip straightens out, the baby (who we think is oblique) goes to a better position.  I think she’s got her butt up in my right ribs…

Sleep wasn’t too bad last night, still was on the sofa and up every two hours or so, needing to stretch.  But again, better than the night before, which was better than the night before.

Anyway, I’m tired.  tomorrow is the chiro visit at the different office, where he has a drop-away table.  Maybe this time, the hip will go.  Fingers crossed.

In some “green” thoughts, here’s Teagan with her St. Paddy‘s leis:

She looks happy, doesn’t she?  LOL!

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March 16, 2011

So, the Chiro thinks I’m right… the baby has turned.  She’s not in a good position, she really can’t be with the torsion that hasn’t released yet.  She’s sort of lying at a 45° angle.  But at least she’s head down and trying to get in the right position.  Encouraging.  Just need to pop that hip and get the placenta to move!

So, another trip to the Chiro, with little joy.  My hip is being very stubborn.  I had to stop the session at least twice, because the stabby pain was just too intense.  He’s going to have me come to a different office, where he as a drop away table.  He thinks this will be better to adjust me on, than the cut out pillows.  We’ll see.  Right now, I just want the pain to stop.  Sleep would be nice too.

I did get a bit more sleep last night though, which was nice.  Maybe it was the mix of a bit of beer, (yeah, I had some beer), some benedryl and tylenol.  And 4-5 nights in a row of no more than 1 hour of sleep followed by 40 minutes of stretching, tossing and turning on the sofa.

I can’t sleep on my left side (the twisted hip), nor on my back (inclined, of course, flat is out of the question now).  The recliner that was such a lovely thing with Teagan has become a cushioned Judas Chair.  I have this small window of slight comfort on my right side, that I can’t seem to find in bed.  The sofa seems to be the only place I get any sleep.

I want to get as much sleep now as I can.  It’s going to be in short supply soon enough.


March 15, 2011

I think I’m in love.  With my new yoga ball.  I hope Stu doesn’t think I’m cheating.  It feels fantastic to sit on the yoga ball.  No, not like that!  But when I do sit on it, my back doesn’t hurt.  The pain melts away.

It was something the Chiro suggested doing two visits ago.  When I mentioned I didn’t have one, he said I could use the kitchen counter – hello lovely island! – instead.  The ball is better.  Much better.

At the end of this morning’s adjustment session he had me sit on one for a few minutes before I left.  The session was quite painful, actually.  I had to have him stop three times, my hip was throbbing so badly. 

Again, my hip didn’t pop.  After almost 30 minutes he apologized a bit, saying that he couldn’t keep pounding on me.  I know.  I’m frustrated about it as well.  The hip that has the torsion is the one that will usually pop at the drop of a hat, when I’m not pregnant. 

He’s asked me to come in every day this week – probably until we get the torsion out.  Hopefully tomorrow and the rest of the week won’t be quite as painful.  But after the ball, and 20 minutes of heat – have I mentioned how I LOVE the heated seats in my car? – everything was much better.  

I went out and got me a yoga ball as soon as I could.


March 8, 2011

(1) sacrum, (2) ilium, (3) ischium, (4) pubis,...

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It seems that I have a rotated sacrum.  Off center.  Twisted.  I went to the chiropractor today, to see if he could help with my lower back pain, and to see if there was anything to help turn the baby.  Many of the sites I’ve been reading about turning breech babies mention one reason for the upside down baby is due to a misalignment of the hips/pubic bones/uterus.  Also, my insurance covers it :)

Turns out, the guy the midwife suggested had an opening this afternoon.  It was a long visit, he was a bit chatty, which was just fine.  I’ve never been to a chiropractor before.  He was gentle.  Explained everything he did while assessing things.  So, thanks to the second pregnancy and all the lovely relaxin, I have a bit of SPD, and sacroiliac joint dysfunction.  So, uterus is a bit off kilter, and the baby doesn’t have enough room to be happy turned.  Ok.  goes along with what I’ve read.

It’s my left side.  Which makes sense, that’s where most of the pain is.  To find this out, the Chiropractor pushed down on my hip and raised my leg.  Left would go up about 40°, right leg around 65°.  It was amazing the difference in range of motion.

After a long assessment and discussion of issues and potential problems (Yay placenta!  You gotta love talking about your placenta with a complete stranger,) he said he was going to start doing the adjustments.  Basically popping my hip into place.  He had me lie on my right side, lower leg straight, upper bent.  Arms sort of crossed, but not quite.  He then tried to twist my left hip back while holding my shoulder straight.  It wouldn’t crack.  He tried three times, I think.  Then we went to the other side.  Small neck adjustment, left side needed some help, right side cracked three times almost on its own.

After getting home, I could feel my hips move – was I just more aware? – as I walked.  Almost a grinding feeling.  But my back felt a little bit better.  And a little bit better is good.

I have another appointment Thursday.