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March 28, 2011

Tomorrow.  Eviction notice will be given tomorrow.  OMG!  I know I’m not ready for it to be TOMORROW!  Yes, I know it could have been any time, but still.  I thought I had more time.

I need to get baby clothes washed, put away.  Dresser put together, car set put back together (it’s washed now!).  Find the bases for the car seat, but that’s a bit less urgent. Get the pack n plays put up (yay! One has a changing station!).  Move the armchair into the living room, so I have a chair that’s easy to get out of.  Oh, just so much stuff to do.

I tried to schedule myself more time.  (April 1st!)  No luck :o

My parents are coming down early enough to send us off.  I guess I can understand that – wanting to see your baby before surgery.  Ok.  They better not call while I’m being stitched up! 

I packed my bag this morning – before the Amnio.  Just in case.  It ended up being a toothbrush and then electronic stuff.  LOL.  What does that say about me?

The Amnio went ok.  Easier, actually, than the CVS.  Faster.  Less painful.  The Doctor that did it said she would use about the same gauge needle as the Lovenox shots, though longer.  CVS needles are a bigger gauge.  They didn’t even put a band-aid on the stick spot.  Amnio results came in late today – lungs are mature!

Monitoring went ok, though it was the first time (and only time.  lol!) at the MFM place.  After about 10 minutes, 3 people come dashing in to adjust the transducer and check readings.  They were worried about the baby’s base line.  I did mention that she runs a bit low, but my OB, and then L&D weren’t worried.  She’s just a chill kid. 

Hopefully it’s a sign of things to come.  I wouldn’t want to get my hopes up too much.  What are the odds that we’d be so lucky as to have a second wonderful baby – kid – as Teagan.  We’d be too blessed.

I am looking forward to meeting this little girl that’s been torturing me these past months.  I will not miss the heartburn, the aches, pains, nausea, fatigue, blurry vision, stuffiness, bleeding gums, the injections (oh those damn shots!), bruises from the shots, itching, swelling, clumsiness, varicose veins, insomnia.  Basically, I will not miss being pregnant.  I will miss, however, feeling her move.  Even though her movements are so strong now as to be painful. 

I worry about my recovery, how quickly I’ll heal, get back to a new normal.  one that includes two kids.  OMG, I’m going to have two kids tomorrow.  How am I going to survive??  I just hope I do an ok job.


March 24, 2011

So, it’s scheduled.  Tuesday will be the day.  She’ll be  here in five days.  Holy crap.  Five days!

If there is an opening later in the week, we may push it back, but the chances of that are pretty slim.  Later would be better.  Any day she’s inside is better.

My parents are coming in to help take care of Teagan, take care of me.  Sister will also be here.  Couldn’t keep any of them away…  they’re all eager to meet this new one.

This new one that we aren’t quite ready for.  None of the clothes are washed.  The car seat is in pieces.  But they are clean pieces.  LOL!  We haven’t put any of the furniture together that we got for her.  It seems we may have procrastinated just a little too much :)

It all will get done, in time.  There’s still no rush.  LOL.  We could put this new little one to sleep in a laundry basket (though we do have a pack n play with her name on it ~ not that we know her name).

I have the amnio and pre-surgery screening on Monday.  I’ll be going alone, they did say that I can drive myself there and back.  I guess they aren’t quite as worried about leaking and stuff as they are at the “normal” time.  I get to sit with a monitor for 30 minutes before and then an hour or so after the procedure.  Then off to the hospital for the pre-surgery stuff.

I will be asking the MFM if it’s ok to have one final adjustment before the surgery.  If they’re letting me drive, they might allow a chiropractic adjustment.  The doctor is in the office with the lovely table that does so well for me.  I’d like one last session there.  (I am at least going there tomorrow!)

The Chiro said that my back should be better pretty quickly after giving birth.  The hip will still be out of wack, but it won’t be quite as painful.  I can get adjusted postpartum and it should be less stubborn then.


March 23, 2011

Since I have no choice and am medically required to have a c-section, I started the paperwork yesterday.  Just the act of scheduling a c-section makes it an elective procedure.  Don’t get me started on that.  It makes me very pissed off.

So, the High Risk OB’s recommend the section before 37w5d, but that would be Thursday, March 30.  The way both my and Stu’s work scheduled are next week, Friday works out better – 37w6d – April 1st.  That’s what I asked my OB to set up.  He said it shouldn’t be a problem.  Cool.  This kid that’s been torturing me the past few months can have her birthday on April Fool’s Day.  LOL!

Anyway, paperwork can’t really get finished until today.  So, I call mid-morning to see how every thing is going.  The scheduler said that 4/1 is all booked, so the next possible day would be 4/11.  She said the OB I saw last night was in surgery all day, so she was going to ask him tomorrow.  I said that MFM – High Risk – recommended by 37.5, so 4/11 would be later than they wanted.  She cant’ do anything without one of her OB’s confirming it.  I suggest she call one of the other OB’s – my “bad news” doc, or the one that delivered Teagan, or the one I usually see for my annuals. 

She eventually ends up getting the “bad news” doctor, who said that 4/11 is too late, so the only other option may be Tuesday 3/29.  It can’t be Monday, as I need to have the amnio before hand to check lung maturity.  Well, Tuesday is not a good day for either Stu nor myself.  Like we can even be picky.  Like we have any control over stuff like this.

Bottom line, she never called back to tell me what day/time I will end up getting cut open and having this little girl.  So, I have no idea what’s happening.  I need to call back tomorrow.


March 7, 2011

yumm... apple
mmmm… apple slices

This morning the midwife confirmed what I thought.  The baby has not turned.  Yet.  She’s turning into one stubborn pre-escapee. 

I had told Stu yesterday, that I didn’t think she had turned.  He had a word or two with her.  She may be one of the first babies to come into this world grounded.
Anyway, I have another appointment in two weeks, to see if she’s still turned the wrong way.  I’m not even worrying about posterior occiput, whatever.  Yet.  We need to turn her around!  There is still time, so I’m not really panicking.  Yet.
She also suggested seeing a chiropractor to see if 1.  he could help my back pain and 2.  help turn her if the “exercises” don’t.
My back has been painful this time.  Almost like back labor, but it doesn’t always come in waves.  Today, I woke up hurting.  And it’s not like I can lie on a board or the floor to make it feel better.  Or lie on my stomach to get a massage – Stu has offered.  After today, if our insurance will cover it, I will go.  Anything that makes my back feel better and easier to walk.  He also does moxibustion.  But we don’t need to think about that, yet.  There’s still time to turn her :)
So, my next midwife appointment is two days after the High-Risk visit, where they’ll check placenta, growth and confirm position.  So, in two weeks we’ll know what needs to be done, and how. 
If the placenta  hasn’t moved, it’s a c-section for me.  I was really hoping (still am!!) for another vaginal birth.  After the hours of contractions, back labor, it really felt good to push.  I’ll miss that, and then have a much more difficult recovery.  Anyway.  It’s not really in my hands.  We can get this baby to turn, even if we need to do a Version.
Unless there’s a complication or reason, they will schedule a c-section at 39 weeks.  I’m not sure if that means when I’ve started 39 weeks or have completed 39 weeks.  The way I feel now, I’d like a St. Paddy’s baby.  LOL!

February 24, 2011

Successful Cesarean section performed by indig...

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Yesterday was not a good day.  Although I got to work from home, I felt icky all day…  Contractions and Braxton Hicks felt almost non-stop.  For giggles I timed them, at worst they were every 3-4 minutes.  Nothing to really be worried about – I could breathe through them – but uncomfortable.

Today, at the midwife visit, she confirmed that as long as I can breathe through them, there’s really nothing to worry about.  They know that they’re not progressing anything.   Just annoying and uncomfortable.    She also confirmed that the baby is still breech, joked about how this kid just spins around willy-nilly.  Her head is on the left now, feet to the right.  SHe had one hand up by her head, but still butt down.  One good thing.  I could start doing the “exercises” again, because I want to get her turned before she runs out of room and any extra space she’s playing around in is gone.

I asked what they would do if the placenta didn’t move far enough for the High-Risk doctors.  She said that since I’d prefer to avoid a c-section they would evaluate it, but that I needed to be aware of the risks.  They wouldn’t let me go if it stays marginal or even low-lying.  She said they may allow if it moved “far enough.”  That’s good enough for now.

Also, I asked if they would allow me to delivery vaginally if the placenta resolved but she stayed breech (not footling, I know they won’t do that).  She said that she’d recommend an external version at 37 weeks and depending, they’d see.  She didn’t out and out rule it out though.

So, although we’d like to avoid a c-section, as time ticks down, it’s becoming more and more likely.  I’m a bit more anxious about having major surgery.  But I guess it’s known versus the unknown.

I go back in two weeks.  This won’t be for a “placenta check” but another midwife visit.  Placenta check will be in 4 weeks.  They’ll switch me over to heparin then too.


February 22, 2011

So, a timely post from one of the sites I enjoy reading.  Granted she’s several weeks behind me, but after Thursday, some of my “chill” is melting away.  I’m getting anxious to get some stuff done. 

Aw… shit!

I haven’t made an actual list yet, it’s mostly in my head, but it wouldn’t take too much.  Let’s see:

  1. Paint Teagan’s room – we had lost the paint chip so were trying to find a new color that we liked as much.  I found it, but we haven’t gotten the pain yet.
  2. Find paint for this new bunny’s room (and then paint it!)  I have the bedding picked out, and it’s sitting there waiting, but I haven’t figured out a color yet.  I have put the curtains up!
  3. Change out the curtain rods.  Teagan’s room has nice curtain rods up, but the room (currently) that will become the new baby’s room doesn’t.  It just has those c shaped rods.  No finials or anything.  It works for now though.
  4. Get the dresser put together.  This means pulling the old dresser out of the room.  Then I could put clothes away and start putting things where they’ll belong.  I can’t help Stu move the old dresser, nor can I do much to help put the new one together.  <sigh>  This is probably the first thing that should be on this list.
  5. Put the crib together.  Another thing that I can’t really help with.  Since we’re planning on having the baby sleep in our room for the first few weeks – while she’s still getting up every few hours to eat – this isn’t quite as important.  But if it’s together, (and we paint) I can decorate a bit, for when we move her in.  We’re going to leave the beds in there for the first few weeks, so that there’s a place for people to stay, other than the basement. 
  6. Get the night tables put together.  Yes, everything is still flat-packed.  This, I may be able to do.  Maybe I’ll peek at the boxes.
  7. Empty the top and move the china cabinet.  It’s sitting on a warped part of the floor, and one door is torked open at the bottom.  It just needs a little push about an inch to the left.  We’ve done this once before, but didn’t get it quite far enough.  This time, I’ll put some heavy boxes on the shelf to double-check the placement. 
  8. Finish putting the office desk together.  Then I can file away the stuff that belongs in cabinets that I can’t get into right now.
  9. Reload iTunes on the new computer that Stu built.  I’m out of podcasts, and I need new music for the iPod.  I need to be sure there’s at least one Radiohead song on there (to help ensure the coolness of this new baby.  LOL!)
  10. I should go through Teagan’s drawers and pull out the receiving blankets (or just some of them) and the burp rags to put in the babies room.
  11. Pull all the newborn stuff out of the basement, and figure out if I’m missing things, or if there are things I’ll need.
  12. Wash the car seat lining.
  13. Get a hospital bag packed.  EEPS!

Ok, that’s more of a list than I thought I had.  And, I’m sure there’s more.  If I really thought about it, I’d totally freak out with everything that needs to be done.  52 days if she doesn’t come early, like she may be threatening to.  Right now, I just want to lie down and not think about it.   This baby better leave me enough time to get things done!

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January 6, 2011


Flight home

Happy Reyes!!  Hope they brought you something good!

So, I’m slowly getting the vacation pictures up.  I’ve gotten through Christmas day…  I’ll get there eventually!

Anyway.  This morning was fun.  I almost got in two accidents driving from day care to work.  With less than a minute of each other.  Thankfully, we had already dropped off the piglet, but hubby was there.  I could have sworn that there was enough room for me to get on to the Merritt – that there were no cars in the right lane.  I may not have been turned around enough in the seat, but still, I could see oncoming traffic.  The first car I was able to stop for, and then pulled out and floored it.  Unfortunately, there was a second car that almost ended up riding in the trunk.  Much closer than I really like being.  It all turned out ok, but I’d prefer not to have something like that happen again!  I’m sure that Stu would agree.

I may be nearing the end of my driving for the time being.  With a double-digit countdown starting tomorrow, not doing too bad.

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December 3, 2010

Our Gang secret sign

OMG!  We’re half-way there!  My weekly pregnancy e-mail had this as the first line!  I can’t believe it’s half done already.  This is a good thing.  Then again, it also means that I’m just under half-way done with the shots, so that’s also a very good thing.

Anyway, today I had an appointment with the High-Risk OB group.  I get to see both my OB/midwife group and the high-risk people.  Fun.  At least I’ve been able to schedule the monthly appointments for every other week, so it’s not too many doctor visits at one time.  The past few weeks though, with the Anatomy scan, Teagan’s well-baby check up that turned into an ear infection so required follow up, it seems as if I’ve been in a doctor’s office more than I’ve been at work.  It’s crazy.  I think it’s been seven doc visits in the past three weeks.  Madness.

Today was just a “healthy pregnancy” visit.  A little groan for the weigh in, a woo woo for the blood pressure results and a big wahooo as there was a surprise ultrasound to check on the baby.  Yay.   As I missed the timing for the AFP Screening  (basically a Spina Bifida screening, and we weren’t too worried, as both the CVS (chromosomal testing) was clear and the Level 2 Anatomy scan didn’t hint at any issues), the doc took a peek at the spine.  She didn’t give me a picture of that, as she said that she needed to chase this little bee around and around just to get a decent look.

Everything is going well.   This little girl is beginning to move around a lot more, or, since she’s getting bigger, I’m just feeling her more.  I think she had hiccups yesterday.  LOL.  And as of yesterday, I actually felt her kick from the outside, not just inside.  Weird.

She doesn’t seem to have any patterns yet, but there’s time.  I remember that Teagan would start doing jumping jacks just as I went to bed, so Stu would fall asleep with his hand on my belly, feeling her wiggle, thump and cartwheel.  Last night, nothing though.

Teagan, recently started coming up and kissing my belly, sometimes lifting up my shirt to do so,  saying “hi baby!”  She’ll sometimes try to play tickle tickle with the baby too.  So fun.


September 2, 2009

Oh, the post-partum joys.  I’m shedding.  It’s crazy! I can’t believe how much hair I’m losing.  One of the last side effects from the pregnancy, but damn!  I need to clean out the shower drain after every shower and sweep the floor after drying my hair.  Pull hair off the baby.  I know that it’s normal, and that I didn’t lose any hair (or very little) during the pregnancy.  I am not in danger of going bald, just of there being hair balls in the house the size of elephants.

 Ok, enough whining about my hair.

Day care is now a sort of purgatory instead of hell.  I found our piglet a place full time, in a center.  It’s right next to the ped’s office, so more convenient than some of the other places I had gone to.  It’s just, well, so institutional.  Which is as it should be, I guess, it is a center.  I have nothing against it.  For older children.  It seems so sterile for the babies though.

 Anyway, she’s all set up to go there this coming Wednesday.  Single digit countdown.  <sigh>  The day after her next shots.  One day pain, the next, a completely new environment (and torture for me).

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May 11, 2009

Finally got some pictures up on Flickr from the shower the other weekend.  There are a couple of detail pictures of the quilt that mom made while she was sitting with my grandma after her stroke.  I’m still amazed that she was able to get so much work done on it at such a difficult time.  She made me cry :*)

Stinky Feet

It’s just beautiful.

I had an appointment this morning with the midwife.  (Weekly appointments, yay fun).  Sadly, she doesn’t think I’ll be having this baby this week.  50% effaced, but -3 (they make it that high?!?!?!) station.  I thought the bump had moved much lower, with all the pressure and pee-inducing headbutting that’s been going on.  Oh well.  She did say that she doesn’t think I should go any later than the due date, even if that means we need to “ripen” and stuff.  She didn’t out and out say induce, which is kinda nice.  One of the reasons I like the practice is that the midwives do most of the deliveries, and they’re not too intervention crazy either. 

Granted, my status of “high-risk” might change how they’re treating me, but it wasn’t supposed to, unless the symptoms warranted.  They had said that they would continue to treat me as just AMA, which is high-risk in it’s own right, and not as high risk.  Yeah.  Confusing, I know.

Anyway, I didn’t argue much with her about it.  Knowing there’s an end in sight – 15 days from now.  Just over two weeks.

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