September 9, 2009

 

Today I left my daughter at day care for the first time.  It’s now been four five hours, the longest I’ve been apart from her.  I miss my baby.  My first day back at work since her birth has been nothing but meetings, which has been good, but it’s been a long day without her already.  The busy has been helpful in keeping me distracted though.

 

I have left her before, for about three hours or so.  But she was with Stu, or my dad…  not in a center, with strangers.  It’s not quite the same thing.

 

I miss my baby.

 

Stu came up at lunch time to see how I was doing, (he didnt see me on intraoffice IM) and I had just gotten out of the morning meeting.  I grabbed some food and we called the day care to see how the piglet was doing.  Judy, one of the room teachers said that Teagan has been doing wonderfully.  “You’d never know it was her first day in day care.”  I didn’t really need to hear that, but I am happy she hasn’t been crying all morning.  Ok, I know she’s too young for separation anxiety – that’s my job right now – and I am glad she’s finding this transition to be relatively transparent so far.  Wow, that office speak, it comes back quick!

 

I miss my baby.

 

I left the morning meeting to go pump.  I hate pumping, but I understand the necessity – I do want to give the piglet as much breast milk as possible.  I do enjoy nursing her (except when she pulls of, but that’s a different story, and one for later).  Pumping in the office is a pure joy.  There’s no table in the mother’s room (a room with a door and a lock).  I almost lost one of the bottles (the full one too!) while trying to get the horn off and cap on because the couch was cushy.  Too valuable a possible loss, (breast milk is liquid gold!), so I asked the building to put a table in.  In the next month, there will be five pumping moms in the building.  I’m sure they’ll appreciate that.  We’ll also need to start up a pump schedule.  LOL!

 

My boss told me that I could leave early today.  He knows how difficult this day is, he has gone through this with his wife.  I do have to say he’s been very understanding and accommodating so far.  He said that we can go and see what needs to be done for my schedule – he’s willing to work with that as well.  He did say that I can work from home for the rest of the week, (I think).  Teagan will still need to be in day care, but she can be there less – three hours less – than if I need to go to the office.  That’s a good thing.

 

I miss my baby.

 

Can I go home now?